Friday, May 11, 2012

Fit Friday!

I didn’t get on the scale this week. I was getting too obsessive. Too crazy and emotional about a dang number. I know it doesn’t define me. I know it doesn’t account for the muscle. Or the looseness of my jeans. Or the flattening of my stomach. Or any of the physical results I see despite the number. I know that.

Garth thinks I’m beautiful. Garth thinks I look good. Garth can notice the muscle in my arms. The ab muscles that are starting to appear. The thinness of my face. But most importantly, God thinks I’m beautiful.
It’s funny because I never used to think I was insecure about my weight. I thought, sure I’m a little self-conscious about it. But what girl isn’t? Then I reached my goal weight and was STILL “self-conscious” about it. Because you know what? No matter how much weight I lose or how muscular I get there will always be someone skinnier than me. Someone more muscular than me. Always. That’s just how life is. We were all created so differently, yet all beautifully.

I started reading So Long Insecurity by Beth Moore during my morning devotionals. It has been really eye opening for me. I didn’t even realize I was so insecure about my weight. But I am. There was a line in the book that really hit home for me. Moore talked about how she was insecure and a friend commented, “But you’re so tiny!” Moore went on to explain that just because she didn’t struggle with weight, she was insecure about other things. That was a huge moment for me because I have thought that exact same thing before. I have thought to myself, “She is so small, she must have it all together.”  And saying it out loud it seems funny, but I used to really think that.

This book is helping me realize my insecurity and realize OTHER insecurities women struggle with that I do not. It has been so eye-opening. I highly recommend the book. It is interesting to learn what others struggle with and the destructive behaviors that stem from insecurity. I’m over 50 pages in and I am almost to how to beat insecurity and win the battle. I’m ready for that section! I am ready to give up this specific insecurity once and for all. To be comfortable and secure in who God made me to be.


Mrs. Newlywed Giggles said...

You are beautiful!!!!!

LWLH said...

I think my mom would really love these books, she struggles with insecurity alot.

Café Moka said...

Love that post!
That book seems to be so inspirational!

Anonymous said...

About time lady ! You are beautiful! You always have been as long as I have known you. You were always so tiny in high school and to me you look just the same. Just know that you are healthy, and happy and loved. That is all that matters. Not a number!

Adrienne said...

This is awesome and absolutely true. I try to focus on being healthy and remembering that when I'm healthy, I'm taking good care of the body God gave me and I'm made beautiful in his sight anyways!

Have you read, "Made to Crave"? That might be a good read too. I have So Long, Insecurity, but I'm waiting to finally finish the Power of a PRaying Wife to start it. Glad to hear it's good!

Mrs. Pancakes said...

Sounds like a great read...and honestly the number doesn't tell half
Of the story most times:-)