Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Confessions.

I am constantly apologizing. Someone will run into me at the grocery store and I will be the one apologizing. It drives Garth crazy.

My food cannot touch. Yuck.

Even at my goal weight I thought I was fat. I hope one day I will make peace with my body.

If there is a dish in the sink it will drive me insane. I will think about the dish in the sink until I can't stand it anymore and go take care of it. OCD much?

I care what people think about me. I hate that I do and I beat myself up about it all the time.

The best thing I ever did was marry Garth. He is my soulmate and he makes me so happy. I love that we can talk about anything and that he always has my back.

I think about what I eat or am about to eat way too much. I am obsessive about my weight and the scale to a point I think it's getting unhealthy.

11 comments:

ashleigh said...

I too am like these alot;
I care what I eat and how much
I too say sorry tooooo much
I too am obsessed with the scale!
I'm here for you!!

Natalie said...

Hugs! We all have our insecurities :( Hang in there!

Lauren said...

Dishes in the sink! Ughh...hate this! I've been sick for the past week and dishes are much more piled up than normal (which really only means 1 or 2 cups in the sink)!

Thankfully I married a man who is as OCD about cleanliness and clutter as I am!

Sarah said...

You are not alone, I agree with you on your confessions. I am sure everyone feels the way you do at various points. Just keep celebrating your successes - big or small!

Jules said...

I do the same thing with apologizing and it drives Geof insane. He says I'm too nice. I don't think that's a bad thing though.

P.S. You might want to check my blog today ;)

Mrs. Dirnberger said...

I think HIGHLY of you..so mark that one off your list :)
I hate dishes in the sink
I care what people think
I worry WAY too much...we have these faults

Newlyweds on a Budget said...

i love food. love, love, love.

i think about food a lot too. if i'm not eating, i'm wondering when i'm going to eat next. i wonder if some girls are as crazy as i am, and how come guys arn't as obsessed with it?

Patience said...

I have been struggling so much with my weight, to the point it is borderline obsessive. I have no idea how this happened, but I am working so hard to change it. I always tell myself if I just lose these last five pounds, but I honestly don't know if I will be happy then.

Mrs. Lukie said...

My food can't touch, either. Hubby jokes that we should buy those children's plates that are divided up into little "sections" for me.

I care what people think about me, too. And it drives me crazy if they don't like me & I want to fix it & prove to them that I am like-able. ::sigh::

I used to have the same battle with my body, about 7 or 8 years ago. I stopped counting calories & watching every.little.thing that went into my mouth, and instead allowed myself little treats, as long as I was going to the gym 5-6 days per week. I hope you find something that helps you, too.

Lil' Woman said...

Big hugs girl!
Alot of us have those issues with weight. Even though I've lost 15 lbs. I still can't shake the vision of what I used to look like. I still see that same person even though I have shed some.

Courtney said...

I pretty much agree with you on all of these!! I still think I'm fat (even though I'm at a healthy weight for my height) and I want to lose 10 more lbs this summer! Hopefully by then I'll be happy with my body! I also am obsessive about the scale. I weigh myself when I wake up, before I go to bed, and a couple times in between. Don't think that's too healthy.