Sometimes.

Sometimes I'm afraid I'll never want to be a mom.
Sometimes I cannot wait to be a mom.
Sometimes I feel stupid.
Sometimes I feel smart.
Sometimes I feel beautiful.
Sometimes I feel ugly.
Sometimes I feel thin.
Sometimes I feel fat.
Sometimes I want to adopt children.
Sometimes the thought of adoption scares me to death.
Sometimes I am afraid we will never find a house.
Sometimes I feel close to God.
Sometimes I feel distant from God.
Sometimes I feel like a great wife.
Sometimes I feel like a terrible wife.
Sometimes...
But God is bigger than all of my fears, all of my insecurities, and all of my monsters. He is bigger and He is REAL.
Sometimes when I doubt being a mother, God shows me I'm a great aunt.
Sometimes when I doubt my intelligence, God reminds me I have my masters.
Sometimes when I doubt my beauty, God reminds me He made me in His image.
Sometimes when I doubt our future, God reminds me that He is in control
Sometimes when I doubt my relationship with God, He reminds me of His grace.
Sometimes when I doubt, God reminds me that He is bigger.
God is always love, always truth, always faithful, always.